Dr Bernadette Scully, accused of killing her disabled daughter had left a note saying: “I can not let her suffering continue. The pain is too big”.
Excerpts of the letter allegedly written by the GP to her partner were read at her trial for the death of Emily Barut.
It is claimed the 11-year-old girl died following the administration of a toxic dose of a sedative in 2012.
The note continued: “If anyone thinks I’m awful for doing this, you should have listened to poor little Emily crying the last eight days. I love her dearly, Bernie.”
Scully, 58, is charged with the unlawful killing of Emily at their home in Emvale, Tullamore, Co Offaly.
She has pleaded not guilty to taking her life by an act of gross negligence involving the administration of an excessive quantity of chloral hydrate on September 15, 2012.
The jury also heard of the emergency 999 call made by Scully’s partner at around 9pm after he found them at home.
Andrius Kozlovskis told Dublin’s Central Criminal Court of how he found Emily cold in her bed and being unable to wake her mum. Scully’s sister Teresa also gave evidence.
Mr Justice Patrick McCarthy heard the accused wrote in the letter she was of a sound mind.
In the note titled, “I’m sorry, love”, Scully added: “I cannot let Emily’s suffering continue. I can’t watch it any longer.
“The pain is too big, the struggle each day is too hard, the loneliness and isolation too much.”
The trial continues.